as long as i can remember

ive been a funny chap

i never fitted in at school

the usual “loner” crap

i spent alot of time alone

found friendships way too hard

i wrote some awful poetry and murdered my guitar

i tried to get a ‘normal’ job

but wanted to be free

i lost my faith in god and worshipped mtv

i had a go at love

got bruises and abbrasions

i fell in love just once (on more than one occasion)

i made a bit of money

at least as a musician

and just like sand fell through my hands and now im in contrition

ive got my good and bad sides

i like pestasio nuts

i find it hard to bite my lip

i like to spill my guts

im narcissistic compassionate

forward yet restrained

an asset and a winner

a loser and a pain

a victim and a sloth

inspired just and fair

my middleage is spreading

im grey and losing hair

yeah all these things and more

im a fascinating bore

but just before you write me off heres a little more

talented and lazy

earnest and sincere

confused by the terrain and a finely tuned ear

yet through all this complexity

i hope you sometimes see

im a mass of contradictions

it aint easy being me